Thursday, November 29, 2012

29th November 2012

... I have the feeling that something happened, or something changed.

And I have no idea what it is ;_; but it's gnawing down deep to my bones and I'm feeling really unrested.

Perhaps I shouldn't have felt so happy in the past weeks, I guess it's only natural to feel a downfall when you realize the place you live at is is actually not the little heaven nest you thought it was.

Wednesday, November 28, 2012

28th November 2012

Aaaaah, headacheee TwT I think I caught a cold ;_; hopefully it'll go away quickly, I've been exhausted for the whole day long. Right after the 8AM class I came back home and went to sleep until 2PM =w= ~

WE'RE ALL SICK HERE, ANYWAY LOL

On a brighter side, guys, the moon is REALLY BIG AND BEAUTIFUL tonight ;A;

Tuesday, November 27, 2012

27th November 2012

Can't believe THAT I'M GOING NUTS because I can't figure out a good conclusion for my essay.

A DAMN. WRITTEN CONCLUSION. IS MAKING ME GO CRAZY.

... Why do I bother so much about a friggin' godamn conclusion?

(PERHAPS BECAUSE I HAD A "DFJHBSJFGDSFGSDHFSD"ING 15/20 IN FRENCH AND THERE'S NO WAY I'M GOING TO DELIVER HALFASSED STUFF FOR EVALUATION FROM NOW ON)

(not that college is hard. I'm just the BIG OL' lazy procrastinator that you all know TwT)

26th November 2012

You guys should seriously see the adorable sibling moments that these two sisters living here have, good grief. It looks like something comming out of a book, and one of the most goddamn cute books you could imagine. Free sentimental mini-movie session for me and for Flavia (we're both only-daughters) half an hour ago!

They'd make envy surge out of the depths of even the proudest only-child in the whole world! ~

Monday, November 26, 2012

26th November 2012

I'm facepalming a little bit, given that I said I wouldn't stay up until late hours when I have classes at 8AM in the next morning... Might as well take that back =w=

WELL OKAY THIS TIME IT WAS NOT MY FAULT. I WASN'T SLEEPY AT ALL, OKAY? D:

No, but I'm going to tell you why I enjoyed last night quite a lot.

Barbara made me listen to a CD of violin adagios and I totally fell in love with it. Specially a couple of them which she specifically said she was very fond of; and I couldn't agree more with everything she said!

We talked about a ton of random stuff which will probably stay in my thoughts for a good while. But then there's this part of the conversation that I have to mention here:

We talked about to what extent the saying "mankind wants what it doesn't/can't have" would apply to our lives, followed by her agreeing with me when I said that, then, I have a passion for classical music because of my hearing loss and the same happens with foreign languages because I will never be able to properly pronounce everything correctly in any language. Isn't that kind of a very sad way to think about these things? I never thought about that. I was shocked!

At a certain point I was so moved by a specific violin excerpt that I closed my eyes; she thought I was falling asleep but actually I was trying hard not to get my eyes too watery due to the overflowing emotions. Here's your beloved crybaby, everyone! TwT ~

It kinda frustrates me that I never managed to get over my hearing loss when it concerns music, no matter how much I wished for it ever since I was very small. You *can* enjoy a lot out of listening to a beautiful piece of music, but nothing compares to the feeling you get when you are CREATING, REPRODUCING, a beautiful piece of music. I knew that long before she confirmed it yesterday.

Well, we ended up listening to music up until 2AM. Then I went back to my room, but my lack of sleep made me stay awake until past 4AM which means I obviously skipped the first class - DON'T hit me, it was kinda useless! ._.

And now I'm rummaging through youtube videos to see if I find a version close to the one in that CD that I absolutely adored. I can already see myself in the next weekend running to the closest FNAC store to buy it!

See you ~

Saturday, November 24, 2012

24th November 2012

Well, since I'm gonna have a relaxed week, I wanted to take the day off to shut the word "COLLEGE" out of my brain for once ever since September.

... Ends up I ended up tearing over Disney movies TwT

I need to watch them all over again when I have time ;A; you seriously perceive things differently than when you used to watch them over and over when you're little. Bambi's mom and Mufasa's death are classic tearjerkers, BUT what about Trusty in Lady and the Tramp, the depth in Mulan's story, and basically every moment in The Fox and the Hound, same with Treasure Planet aaaaaand I'm not going to talk about all of them who make me go into crybaby mode or we'd never get out of here ~ *hides* not to mention the non-Disney cartoons oh god you're so oblivious to sentimental stuff when you're a kid.

At least I know I was T^T

Tissues anyone...?

24th November 2012

Went to the dentist to take care of a little cavity. That's what I get for eating too much  candy at night!

Can't feel half of my mouth, sheesh TwT currently talking funny and can't chew on the right side - right on McDonald's weekly day! ._.

(to those who didn't use to follow my previous blog, I always go to MacD's with my dad on weekends. It's a veeeeeeeeery old tradition which we didn't gave up on even when I'm living in Lisbon  ~)

Thursday, November 22, 2012

22nd November 2012

Aaaah, I'm happy!!

First time since I cut my hair super-short that I can tie it up in a neat bun!

It's taking a good while to grow back. I loved to have it short, it's a whole new feeling, but I admit I really miss being able to have fun messing around with my hair.

Also I don't have to rely in headbands to keep it away from my face during studying/drawing time anymore!!


Still am a little dependent when it comes to hairpins, have to stick half a dozen of them around so that the hair stays on its place, but it'll gradually grow back. ^_^ Can't wait to have it around the bottom of my backs again ~ I used to love my huge, messy hairbuns!

22nd November 2012

Aaaah~ I'm such a anti-social bear in its little cave TwT ~

I want to go out a bit too ~

Everyone fly to Lisbon and let's throw a bonfire party and eat lots of marshmallows, okay? ~

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

21st November 2012

It's such a heartwarming thing to see that I have two firey, intense, honest roommates.

So much that I feel totally weak-minded and naive sometimes. This is one of these times. Where I remember the times when I would be the first one to impose a loud and straight shout, but only feel like crying now.

How I wish I could do something for them... I hope my spirit will gradually come back. Just make it soon! ;A; ~

21st November 2012

Quite the great day! ^_^

First of all, I received really sweet news ~ so I feel quite cheerful today ;w;

The french presentation went REALLY REALLY well. I heard a big chain of compliments and I won't deny that it was very fulfilling since we put a lot of heart on it and it was much more of a spontaneous debate rather than a scripted presentation.

Then I took a lost english tourist to the subway station, and then managed to, uh, sleep until 2PM TwT

The second presentation also went well. It was not as amazing as the first one, but it was quite good as well.

Then I came home and... Slept again?

Now we're off to our usual studying evening :3 Also guess what? I'M SLEEPY! ~

Ganbarimasu ~ <3

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

20th November 2012

;________; So I slept really awfully last night and didn't even hear my alarm. I missed this morning's classes.  Aaah, this is irritating, I don't like it that I've missed so many classes halfheartedly like this. Hopefully nothing too important was taught today. TwT

I'm going to call my classmates to know what I've missed and after that I'm going to study hard until 5PM - then it's work group time!

Ganbare, ganbare! ~

Monday, November 19, 2012

19th November 2012

I've come to realize one thing recently:

It's genuinely true that I've been feeling "out-of-this-world" happy lately, specially given that I've started to develop real friendships with some people here in Lisbon, also that I've been taken care of VERY well both at home and at college, and that I've had a massive luck so far.

YET. I still don't feel like myself. I still feel very much out of place. Off-beat from everything. I don't know, I can't really type it down like that. I lack words to describe it.

I mean, something is missing.

I don't question my friendships on it, because I've met very dear people in college and here at home I'd feel lost and maybe even slightly depressed without my two roommates - though they get along with each other better than I do with each of them I think (normal, given how I don't feel like myself in the capital yet. Gradually getting there someday?), there's still an honest connection and I feel very safe and at home near them. I feel I'm going to be okay with them near me in the following years, perhaps we'd even develop a great friendship? BUT I still feel something is lacking IN ME to allow that.

The same about my college success. I've been doing quite good, I've been putting a nice effort (though I feel awful when realizing I don't work even half of what other people in this house work...), but something is lacking. I enjoy classes, I enjoy working on them, I enjoy everything. BUT there's an empty hole in the middle of all that enjoyment and I fail to realize what it is.

So, lately I've been happy, yes, but sliiightly frustrated and worried inside for now knowing what this is all about? I can't help it, it's the first time in a LONG, LONG time that I feel out of myself and this time I don't even know why. Homesickness, from being far from Leiria and everyone? It has been suggested a lot but somehow I don't really think that's all.

Obviously I'm not stopping myself from enjoying the most I can from all the wonderful moments that I've been experiencing here, so no worries :3 I'm sure the answer will come someday soon. Until then, let's work hard! ~ <3

I should go take a shower and then we're studying for the rest of the evening as usual.

Oyasuminasai ~

19th November 2012

Call it luck, misfortune, fate, destiny, coincidences, whatever you want,

But I supposedly had two important oral presentations today - one of them perhaps THE most important one of the semester.

Ends up that they were both postponed LOL. First one, where we're expected to talk for over 30 minutes, was postponed because the first group (we're second) took over 1 hour to get around that oldassed computer trolling attempts. Mediaplayer didn't work, the sound neither, also it took ages to reboot, yadayadayada.

Then the second class was simply cancelled. 8D this one was sorta fortunate because we kind of felt we didn't prepare well enough for it. CHAAANCE!

And now I'm sitting right here, listening to good music and eating one of the sweetest tangerines I've ever had in a while.

Life's so good when you embrace the little things. <3

(still not happy about having to wake up everyday at 7AM minus on Fridays, though. Can't have everything purrfect!)

Sunday, November 18, 2012

18th November 2012

Forgot to tell you, it's been some weeks already:

Glasses problem is partially SOLVED!


(please disregard the awful webcam quality, as usual...)

Well these are not exactly correcting glasses, but more like my old resting glasses. They control the light your eyes receives, so it's good for laptops, reading and watching TV. Much better than nothing! <3

18th November 2012

Gotta love my mom's logic.

Friday I arrived home and told her I should bring less SUGARY stuff (as in, more healthy stuff?) to eat from now on to the capital because Barbara and Flavia kinda love to lecture me about my SUPER HYPER HEALTHY diet. Like, I have most of my drawers full with sweet crepes, cookies, milkbread, chocolate bars, kinders, lollipops, milka chocolate stuff, chocolate cereals - yadayadayadayada. You guys get the point.

So today when I unpacked my luggage (my mom usually puts the food on Sunday morning while everything else is packed and I'm usually sleeping when she does it), I kinda made a funny face when I noticed that she reduced A BIT in the sugary stuff, only to add SALTY stuff everywhere.

I love my mom, LOL. But okay, I brought tangerines, homemade food and lasagna which counts like healthy food I guess?

This is this week's stock:


And a lot of stuff is still missing!!

Since we're talking about food - it's dinner time! See you ~

Saturday, November 17, 2012

16th November 2012

How do you like the blog's new template? :3

I recycled my older template and gave up on the new one's coding. Sorry to you guys who liked that one more! But this one at least is readable in everyone's laptop. Priorities, priorities! ~

Getting ready for Monday's big presentation ^_^ wish me luck!

Thursday, November 15, 2012

14th November 2012

... Please tell me grocery stores are open before 8AM?

Or I'm going to be roasted by my veterans tomorrow ;_;

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

14th November 2012

STRIKE DAY!!

Classless day ~ staying at bed until lunchtime ~ lazying all day long ~
All of this just cames with a perfect timing, considering I can barely climb the stairways up after yesterday's freshman trial with the college veterans!

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

13th November 2012

Further proof that I'm regarded like a little pet rather than a college girl TwT the veterans in today's super tough trial, said that my absence was totally justified and that I shouldn't worry about it at all and should give my best and that's it - all while I've seen a guy who said he could barely walk to be forced to come and do everything we did today (which was very physically exhausting, loads of running, strenght exercises, and what not - ALL WHILE WEARING BOXERS WITH NOTHING UNDER - well, shorts and underwear were allowed lol - WITH THIS COLD WEATHER. Lots of coughing and sneezing!! We'll all be running a fever tomorrow, how much do you wanna bet on it?).

I can barely feel my legs after all of this. I need a long, warm shower T^T ~

Sunday, November 11, 2012

11th November 2012

Martinmas is today!!

So we ate chestnuts for dessert after dinner. I was happily peeling some chestnuts for Barbara after dinner, only to discover she's only comming tomorrow ;_;

I'm gonna be all by myself tonight! It's been a while, I feel lonely ~

Perhaps I'll go sleep sooner?

Good night, everyone <3

Saturday, November 10, 2012

10th November 2012

I went Christmas shopping ~

Bought some presents to some friends who I'm used to exchange gifts with annually. It was a good harvest! :3

Also bought a pair of shirts, gloves, a woolen scarf and a berret for me. I was needing these shirts for a while and the gloves as well as a thicker scarf would come in handy in colder days.

Until a while ago I was rehearsing a christmas song for the christmas party which is due in more or less a month from now? I'll probably start doing that every weekend until then.

Food time now ~ Oyasuminasai!

Friday, November 9, 2012

9th November 2012

On my way to Leiria. Got a text message from Barbara:

"Just wanted to warn you that it's raining in a really creepy way and kinda unseen in Portugal here"

And then I procceed to see pictures of my hometown flooding in social networks.

Followed by my mom telling me she was hearing thunders. THIS WAS THE LAST STRAW.

HELP ME.

BUSDRIVER PLEASE GO BACK TO LISBON, I BLOODY HATE THUNDERS AND STORMS.
;_________________;

Arriving closer to my hometown now... The sky is all pukey-yellow and grey'ish. It has a really scary colour.

GO HOME WEATHER, YOU'RE DRUNK.

SPARE ME FROM THIS, PRETTY PLEASE WITH A CHERRY ON TOP D:

9th November 2012

No. JUST. NO.

WHY on Earth would you give a whole lecture in Catalan to a multilingual class where some of them can't even grasp Portuguese correctly?!

... Well that was one wasted morning for most of the class. D:

8th November 2012

Well that was some way to finish one hell of a day =w= ~

It was a very full day today overall. I even forgot to tell you that Barbara came here sooner to vent a bit about some stuff (which I obviously won't develop here, it's just to say that we kinda felt happy to see that she would trust us in this kind of things ;w; we're right here with you, sweetheart! Be strong!)

ANYWAY back to what happened a while back...

After dinner, Flavia had a sudden desire of eating a palmier. A friggin' palmier. You ALL know what a palmier is, right? Good. Everyone should know what it is.

So we went outside (at these absurd hours, hoping - god knows how - to find some place open which would sell palmiers) and walked down the commercial street behind our building.

No palmiers to be seen. What would you expect after 10PM anyway...?

So we saw a general shop open. They were kinda arguing whether it would sell palmiers?

"Maybe they do..?" "No, most likely they don't" "What if..." "Nah, unlikely"

So I sort of dashed inside the store and asked out loud if they sold palmiers or knew a place open at this hour where they would sell them.

... 5 seconds of utter silence. Which were then broken by these two idiots' massive laugher outside the building who even ran away to another street. And these dudes insides... After asking me where I am from (because of my accent), well they had no idea what a palmier is, so I figured they wouldn't be selling these and went away to the encounter of my two roommates further in the streets laughing like two maniacs. T_____T

BUT I MEAN, HOW DO YOU MANAGE A FOOD STORE AND DON'T KNOW WHAT A PALMIER IS.

The worst is when they came behind me talking to me in French (told them I was French...). I was dumbfound.

I MEAN,

NOT ONLY YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT A PALMIER IS.
AND YOU TELL ME YOU'RE FRENCH.
PALMIERS ARE COMMON FRENCH PASTRY.
HOW DO YOU EVEN EXIST.

... So I spent several minutes trying to explain them what a damn palmier was. While Flavia and Barbara were still soundly laughing behind me. But no results. I gave up and we finally went away.

WHAT'S SO FUNNY ABOUT TWO FOOD STORE FRENCH OWNERS WHO DON'T KNOW WHAT A PALMIER IS, THIS ISN'T FUNNY, THIS IS FRUSTRATING T_T

After a while I finally managed to find a place where they'd sell them so at the end of the night we were all happy.

Barbara had the best laugh of her time ever since she arrived in the capital.
Flavia got her dear palmier.
And I... Well I got a story which I'll probably hear about again in my wedding's speeches or something. Because these two were visibly laughing WAY too much over all of it (god knows why... I must have missed the whole point, rofl) to forget it just like that.

Kidding. :3
I got two amazing little human beings as friends. TRAUMATISING little human beings, but very dear and amazing. <3

NOW I'm dashing downstairs to get that chocolate cake ready for them! See you ~

Thursday, November 8, 2012

8th November 2012

.... I think those Maths exercises just made Flavia's brain implode? She's gone nuts. Like, legitly nuts.

A little help needed hereeeee ~ TwT

Hopefully dinner will bring her sanity back, rofl.

8th November 2012

Just got home after spending the afternoon with a friend I didn't see for a long time! I mentioned him a couple of times in my  older blog, he's called Miguel. He used to hang out with me and my usual highschool group of buddies - for older readers, that means that really traumatizing group from the footwalk from Capuchos to Pousos on that goddamned raining night. TwT

THIS MEANS THAT I WENT DOWNTOWN AGAIN!!!

We didn't see half of the stuff I saw previously with Barbara, but it was still a very sweet stroll. We took tons of pictures!

Then he took me to some sort of HEAVENLY pastry boutique where I was given a HUGEASSED piece of chocolate cake that I couldn't finish no matter how much he wanted me to try finishing it. So I brought a bit of it home for Barbara and Flavia ^_^

Here's a picture of it. It was even more delicious than it appears!!



They'll eat it later in the night as a studying reward ~

Monday, November 5, 2012

5th November 2012

I'm seriously nervous because I'm having Human Language evaluations tomorrow and my teacher

DOES
NOT
KNOW
WHAT
SHE IS
TALKING
ABOUT

during the class.

We actually spent a whole class previously correcting her scripts and her logic.

Don't get me wrong she seems a sweet person and all but
HOW ARE THERE PEOPLE LIKE THAT TEACHING IN COLLEGE, FOR HEAVEN'S SAKE

...
What am I supposed to study for tomorrow? ;_____;
Her flawed scripts? Or correct stuff that she will possibly correct as being wrong?
AAAAAH HELP

EDIT 7/09/2014: So it's been almost two years since I posted this and I wanted to say something. The teacher I am referring to here is actually a really sweet person who taught a class which touched subjects which weren't her area of specialisation - such as Phonetics, which consist of the classes I've frequented the most. Hence that first impression. She's a syntacticist and I've skipped the syntax classes due to health issues, making me miss her shinning moment. Nowadays I know how great she is in her area and I'll have classes with her again this semester and I cannot wait!

Friday, November 2, 2012

2nd November 2012

Aaaah~ =w=

Sweet lazy life ~

Staying on a cozy and warm bed until noon ~

This is the good stuff  =w= ~

... Have to get up to pack my stuff to go back Home though.

I DON'T WANNAAAA ~ ;___________;

Thursday, November 1, 2012

1st November 2012

Today it was ONE. OF. THE. SWEETEST. DAYS. EVER.

Seriously I loved it SO much, we had no idea. ALSO we took loads of pictures. I'm totally cherishing these ;______; EMOTIONAL MOMENT, GUYS, I LOVE MY LIFE SO MUCH

So first I spent the afternoon taking a stroll downtown with Barbara. She showed me some of the nicest places and recommended me some spots to visit once I have the chance. We couldn't see everything we wanted because we had to be at the subway station early in order to get on time at the mall for the movie - we went to see Skyfall @_@ and it was great!

But we saw some really beautiful places. I told her I want to go with them to the Oceanary soon as well. And that I wanted to walk down the main Avenue on Christmas time at night, because trust me; it is already really beautiful at daytime, now imagine it all decorated and iluminated on a winter night with christmas decoration. ABSOLUTELY. FLAWLESS. SCENERY. ;A; ~~~~~

Flavia ended up joining us halfway, only to go away again by the time we had to go to the mall. It was a pity, but she had a rendez-vous with her boyfriend, so we had to leave it for another day xD

When she was with us, we went down all the way until the river place! By that time, the night came and everything got lighted up and it was a really amazing view to your eyes. Old Lisbon is so precious. I want to go back there soon again.

So then we met with Mariana and Primi (Ana's nickname, I'll refer to her as Primi from now on, easier for me because that's what I call her anyway, rofl) and another girl from the residence (who I don't talk much to for now, but also seems nice!) at the mall. We went to see the movie with them and some of Mariana's friends, and then went to have dinner at a rather peculiar place. But it tasted good! (though deep inside me I had something yelling for some McFood, but shhhhh, keep it a secret ~)

And now we're back home and I'm tired but SO HAPPY. They're really precious people, these four! ;___;

Good night, everyone ~ <3