Please allow me to vent a bit about my personal life (and health) today.
Ever since, uh, two years ago?, I've started to have several health-related problems accumulating on a list to be taken care of. Add that to my ID and VISA problems, and we're starting off just great.
I've had massive problems due to my period (sorry guys, a little 'eww' time for you) where I get way too weak and it's way too painful to even get out of bed without crawling around (thus, I missed classes several times. The problem is that I don't even take the pill so far, because of reasons probably known to most of you);
Then I started complaining about having sight problems to see farther things, but in high school the seats weren't "come first sit first" and there weren't the massive amount of other people who have special needs that I have here in my college classes, so I could always sit in front. Besides, classrooms were obviously small compared to anphitheaters, right? Also due to being in front of computer screen since the age of 2 or 3, I started feeling the need of having them for long computer nights or even to read a book. But it was always postponed (and actually forgotten because my mom just told me she never noticed anything about my sight nor heard me complain about it... I was like "ARE YOU SERIOUS?!"), and now I start feeling in trouble because of it.
I also have a problem with a couple of my teeth. I might even have a cavity. I don't even know, it hurts sometimes and/or it's sensitive, but even though I do my best trying to wash them twice a day and use Listerine I still am not sure of anything because my parents never felt the need of taking me to the dentist not even ONCE in my friggin' life. Man, I know kids usually hate it but I actually ASKED them more than once about it, WAY before having teeth issues, and even with a probable cavity I'm still waiting for my first apointment.
Then there's the fact that I'm super weak, I have super low tension and I'm deadly pale and feel constantly tired. For a while I took vitamin suplements BY A DOCTOR'S ADVICE, and I took it for what, half a month? Then I had to stop because my mom didn't want me to get addicted to them (what...?), EVEN THOUGH I felt better while taking them and having recovered some colours on my face.
And now, let's go back to an 'eww' moment for the boys. I have been having my period for a month, and it's not just a few drops of blood. Mom says what? "Ah, it happens."; YEAH IT DOES AND I KNOW IT, I've been having it, not imagining it. I was already weak by nature but now I'm feeling dizzy very often, I am even paler (I even scare myself when I see my face and very ugly dark cicles under my eyes), thinner, weaker, and I've had to skip a class because I felt so bad during the morning that I couldn't even open my eyes decently (and felt I shouldn't take the risk after having felt really dizzy on my way to a morning class before. Faining in the middle of Lisbon streets isn't exactly the way I wanna go).
The reason why all of these got postponed so far was "money issues" or "we'll talk about that later". So far, it's been acumulating for two years. I even told them that if the money was the biggest issue we'd use my savings, I have enough to do it for heaven's sake, but... Still nothing. I mean, I understand and am thankful that they don't want me to spend my own money on it, but I don't get it if we stay still all that time. Common sense says health is more important than money/savings, right? I mean, I do think these reasons are URGENT ENOUGH to spend my savings on it.
I wonder if all these psychological changes I have felt when I moved to Lisbon (and you can read more about them in the post I made about the two sisters I've been living with) aren't also related to my physical condition getting worse. I feel really dull, blank and weak mentally as well lately.
I'm seriously worried.
I have to admit that even though they'd feel seriously hurt or angered by it, if it goes on like this I'm going to have to turn to other people who have been genuinely more worried about my condition to help me taking care of these. Because all of these have expanded to a whole new level now that my lifestyle in college is totally different.
I need glasses (at least for further sight and/or reading/the computer) and, specially, all my strenght and health in order to succeed for the next years.
Life isn't easy mode anymore.
If you have similiar issues and you're still in high school, please make sure to take care of them BEFORE you get into college. Don't make the same mistakes we've been making for all these times, seriously. It may seem too exagerated or too much of a difference, but it is NOT. IT IS that much of a stretch.
